Susie experienced her Spiritual Awakening on December 13th, 2004. Since that time, she has developed into a Spiritual Guide and Transformation Coach, teaching others how to do what she has done in her own life. Are you going through a spiritual awakening? You may enjoy relating the stories of other like you: Awakening Journeys: The Sacred Emerges
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Hi everyone, I was trying to do a Facebook live for you guys so we could have this live interaction in real time but the Wi-Fi here isn’t great. So, I’m trying to take this vacation, but I feel so inspired to share this and to connect with each of you, so here I am not vacationing [laughs] it’s all good.
I wanted to share my story of my initial spiritual awakening. Partly because some of you know it, some of you don’t but really to offer a connection because I know that a lot of you go through this journey and you feel alone at times. You don’t have to. I put myself out there in a very public way sharing a lot of intimate things about my life because I know that many of you are experiencing the same things and I want you to know you’re not alone. You are never alone in what you are experiencing, in what you’re doing. The new answers to your experience may be different than mine but there’s always a connection point, there’s always a place where we can connect in our hearts to have a true relationship. Even if it won’t be energetic, even if I never meet you in person or respond to your comment I don’t know, we still—-we are on this planet together.
I wanted to share this story with you, just as a point of connection and to have you see and feel, hopefully, that you are not alone in your spiritual journey.
So it was 13 years ago, December 13, 2004, and I was at the acupuncture table. It was session number 6 and my acupunctures stayed within the room, which was a little unusual he would usually turn off the lights and leave the room and let the process happen but for whatever reason, he stayed in the room that day. I had this flashback to two days before: I was in nutrition school and my friend who I had actually stayed with at a CFS clinic years before that showed up. She was right there and we gave each other a big hug and whatever. She looked at me and she said “Suzy you don’t have CSF anymore” and I heard what she said but my experience at that time was that I very much did [laughs] so I just—-I acknowledge what she said and just kind of let it go.
Then the next day I’m sitting in class – the nutrition school, we were going through this exercise where we had to write down what we wanted the next day, the next week, a month from now, a year from now, five years from now. When you are in the chronic fatigue you’re not necessarily thinking about what you want to accomplish a week from now, you’re just trying to get through the day, you’re just trying to survive and hopefully, you can get everything done you need to that day, let alone a week from now. I was very quickly getting overwhelmed and I was very [sighs] there was a lot of resistance coming up within me because it was just very overwhelming to think like “I don’t know, I don’t know what I want to accomplish a week from now, let alone five years from now, ten years from now” until I broke down. I lost it and there was actually—-I was actually kind of sitting towards the front, it was a room of like a thousand people and to the left of me there was like a ledge and so I don’t know what I was thinking. I was probably in the state of overwhelm but I climbed up on the ledge [laughs] and I laid down and one of the attendants came over and they were like “are you okay?” and I’m like, clearly I wasn’t. So they took me to a room in the back and someone came and started doing Reiki with me and I was a pediatric therapist at that time.
I remember a couple of things about that experience. I know I’m going a little bit of a rabbit hole but I will get back to that acupuncture session. She started giving me Reiki and I was a Christian at that time and I was always taught that Reiki was of the devil and was satanic or evil or whatever and I was kinda like “I’m not sure if this is okay” but there is something about that was and so I went with it. And then I also have this really clear knowing that I had to let go of my title as an occupational therapist and I didn’t know what it meant at that time, I just knew on some level that whatever attachment I had to that title then, I needed to let it to.
Okay, so that all happened the weekend before the Monday, December 15, that I was on the acupuncture table. And I flashed back to that weekend and as soon as I landed on my friends face and her telling me – I don’t have chronic fatigue syndrome anymore, all of a sudden I knew she was right. And it was like that knowing flipped the switch within my body, within my emotional feel, within my brain, my nervous system, everything. I knew throughout my entire being that I was no longer sick and it was truly one of those lightbulb moments, one of those miraculous moments. (I didn’t realize at the time that I was going through a spiritual awakening.
Since that moment my life has never been the same. What happened was, after that I had two weeks where I was just totally at bliss. I thought life was finally going to be easy; life was finally going to feel better, coz I had sickness and all kinds of things since I was an infant. I’ve never had an easy life, not that we were poor but money was never easily accessible, it was always you have to watch how much you spend and “oh, you want that, don’t have money for that, cant have that”, so there was a lot of lack, a lot of—–there was a lot of hardship in my life if I’m being honest. To give parents—-my parents kind of gave us a lot of love, there was a lot of nurturing, there was all of that good stuff too but when it came to my existence on this planet, it was never easy for me. I’m super sensitive. I’m an empath. I’m very driven and determined but that sensitive part of me couldn’t quite cope with being here on this planet and quite know what to do with this [laughs] my environment. So I thought “oh finally I get to enjoy my life, it’s going to be fun and great and easy and whatever” well, you know how the journey goes you guys [laughs] you know there are ups and downs, then you go around and twist and turns all kinds of things.
It’s been 13 years whether I’ve been healing myself or I’ve been digging deep or I’ve been doing my inner work. And a lot of this time I have been sharing myself through video, through my newsletter etcetera. The inner work that I’ve been doing and the realization that I’ve been having. The healing and the transformation I’ve been experiencing.
If you would have known me then, I’m a very different person now. I had a lot of anxiety, I was wound up super tight and I had to undo all of that. To find my inner peace, to find and remember who I am, still in process, to really oh man,—- to work through the [inaudible 0:08:55], the mud, the sludge. I see a lot of spiritual teaching about how easy this journey can be, like putting yourself in state of bliss or in a state of joy and—-I’m not saying that’s not attainable but because we live in polarity, to get to the bliss, you also have to get through all the other stuff that’s on the other side of the spectrum.
So that’s what my journey of the past 13 years really have been – being able to feel my emotions, being able to know who I am, in that moment of awakening and then walk through all the stuff, peel all the layers, peel off the stuff that’s not me so that I can emerge in who I am.
Its kind of a blessing and a curse because very quickly after I had that awakening experience, I saw who I was; not as a human on this planet but as the light as the love. Its hard to describe but I saw who I was and I knew that I could become that, I knew that I could express that and it was very frustrating many times along the journey because I wasn’t expecting that and I wasn’t feeling necessarily even connected to that but I knew that I was that. And it was very challenging to have the patience – patience is not my favorite [laughs] to have the patience to go through the journey, to go through the mock and ick, and the sludge and the shadow, you might want to call it, to go through all of that.
Now I’m not saying I’m on the other side of all of that but I have certainly transform very very deeply, and that’s why I do what I do, that’s why I feel comfortable in my vulnerability, sharing my experiences with you, that’s why I started the creation temple so that you don’t have to feel alone in your journey, so that you can get the guidance and support that you deserve.
I’m very blessed on my own journey, my original acupuncture. I’m still in touch till this day and he’s been my mentor for this 13 years, and I’m so grateful to have that level of support and I know because of who I am and why I came to this planet that I needed to have that level support, coz I’m very sensitive, I’m very—-you know I feel everything, so to have someone who could kind of like keep me in check, keep me humble, that was really important for me.
So, ultimately when you are in those tough places in the journey, I invite you to kind of sink into yourself and remember who you are, remember the love that you are, remember the light that you are. Ask for remembering of why you came to this planet, what your soul mission and you know if you are not getting the answers I could certainly help you with that. I have channeling sections, that’s what we do, we ask for your soul purposes, that help is certainly available for you. Ask, ask these question like “who I’m I? Why I’m I here? What is my soul signature? What is my soul purpose for being here? What is the mastery that I’m working on? What’s in alignment for me?” and to know that you can create your life according to what is aligned for you.
A lot of people when they are talking about manifesting “get the car, the house, the trip to wherever” and if your experience is that you’re not able to manifest those things maybe its because they are not in alignment for you, and to release all the things you think you want and allow your soul to speak, what does your soul want, what’s in alignment for your experience here on this planet from your soul’s perspective and that’s where you find that true bliss, that true joy. There are lots of things that I thought I’d be doing by now in my life that I’m not, that’s okay because I’ve found something so much better, I’ve found my soul desires that instead of living that and that is priceless. I would much rather be living according to my soul’s alignments than satisfying my ego or something like that.
I invite you into that journey – the journey of the soul, and what your soul can tell you and how you can be alleviated in your experience of the spiritual path, because when you are operating from your soul none of the other stuff matters, like—-yes at times I have some fun in manifesting but I’m really asked I don’t even care about that stuff, what I want, what brings me fulfillment is living from my soul, living from my heart desires.
I thank you for joining me on this video and I really want for you, what is best for you, what is best for you from your soul journey from your soul’s perspective, not what I might think you should do in your life but what does your soul want to express to you and what does that look like and how does that feel to you. So I invite you into that frequency, into that feeling of your soul, into that knowing of who you are, at the soul level because that’s where it’s at on this planet right, that’s where where we can access our soul’s desire and live and express those.
Everything changes on this planet, can you imagine if everyone was doing that? That’s why I’m so passionate about the restoring earth to her original condition as heaven because it’s totally possible, absolutely possible but it takes each of us doing our inner work, it takes each one of us on that frequency.
So if you are feeling alone, if you are feeling that you can’t quite figure out how to make that happen, I do invite you to either a one on one session or become a master creator in the master temple because we meet every week online, we get to connect wee get to see each other, you get the guidance and support you need, you get personal channeling, you get activations, DNA activations, heart activations, all kind of things and there is an amazing space that I’ve created for you and so if you resonate with any of those things goto creationtemple.com or Susiebeiler.com and just a quick note: At the end of the year, at the beginning of 2018 our prices on a lot of things, a lot of my services are going up, so if have been kind of waiting or feeling like you want to session but you haven’t quite booked it, I would encourage you to that now before the beginning in 2018 and you would get a lower price .
I love you guys thank you again for joining me in this video and I would see you again in the next one. Much love, Muah!